I was just thinking in my head here...
If someone said to me Jennee I hate my job. what should I do ? id say quit. go get another one.
if someone said, I hate my house. id say move.
if someone said I hate my boyfriend. id say leave him.
SO WHY can't I quit this struggle Im going through? why cant I just up and walk away? I would do it with anything else. I've walked away before- I've quit before. Why can I not quit the whole family thing? Why can I not face reality? How many times do I have to be told 'No', it aint gonna happen. it's not meant to happen. it's never going to happen?
How many times do I have to keep trying and trying and trying. What's that saying- if at first you don't succeed try try again. When does that stop and when do you say. Ok already.
There's one thing I hate when parents say to their kids "you can do anything you put your mind to." Well obviously not. Is this not just setting people up for failure. You CANNOT DO ANYTHING you put your mind to. 95% of things -yes, but not everything.
How do I get over this threshold and into the next stage, of dealing with this whole thing being in the past? How do I move on from my dreams and learn that they were only dreams, not a reality, and never will be?
Why is it so easy to tell others what to do but I can't do it?
Why do I keep telling myself I can't quit because if you try one more time it might be the right time.